Sometimes, I really regret getting married especially at such a young age.  Why did I marry a man whom I have zero trust in him but love him very much? It is not happiness but misery.  I keep asking myself will we have lasting marriage? How long do I have to keep suspecting him? Mentally, it is very stressful.  I thought of divorce and wanted a divorce. Will I be happier? I don't know and will not have the answer till I do it.  My friends convinced me that it will not be easy route and I will suffer emotionally and physically.  I agree and totally agree.  If I really divorce, it might take months or even years to pick up and I know its difficult.  I am really in a dilemma....